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THEORYLAND IS A "MORALITY PLAY" IN FIVE CANTOS:
AMBITION / DESPERATION
/ VICTORY
CRACK-UP / DIRT
--NOW PRESENTING ALL FIVE CANTOS--
"The center is
not the center."
J. Derrida
I:
AMBITION
Clarity is the cruelest mode,
patients aetherized on the table must be code.
How then do I hide my hermeneutic
rear
as I fashion a career?
How do I swell a progress, start a fad or two?
Advise the Dean, like me an eager goose?
Ambitious
too, so he hates to be of use....
In the rooms the critics come and go
sneering at the status quo.
On the dry
grass, in a dry wind,
students throw a frisbee, joking.
The janitor laughs, smoking.
I suspect they see,
speaking
ontologically,
to the other side of me.
So how do I weasel words to shapes all new
and make them mean what I
say they do?
In short, how can I be profuse
but adequately abstruse?
How can I roll this campus into a ball
and
have it all?
How can I be, as I promenade
about the quad,
a god!?
I hear the mermaids singing
but I do not think they sing for me:
If
you want to get to Theory
let us tell you what to do.
You got to grease your thoughts
in Stan's Fish Stew,
then
hold tight to the Devil's hand
and slide into Theoryland...
The dry wind steals their song...
Maybe
I'm doing this all wrong.
Doubts spring like peonies,
now I'm retching on my knees.
How does one take a teeny, tiny
pensee
and call it the Truth and the Way?
Do I dare? Do I dare?
Can I sculpt upon the air?
My moods are startling
and spastic.
I can hardly choose--paper or plastic?
Nooo! A bald spot in the middle of my exegesis--
could
anyone sell this cheese as thesis?
CHORUS
It's a dark noon in Gaza as theories clash;
books are not burned but analyzed to ash.
Look homeward, angels, and weep for truth,
Theory's good enough for youth.
In the rooms the critics come and sneer:
my intertext is all veneer.
I may have sinned, my closure fated,
Who knew this jargon was two months dated?
I can hear the co-eds cringing, each to each,
I'm scuttling claws, sunk out of reach.
I know now, as I promenade
up and down the quad,
I'II never be a god...
I want so much to be
a god. A bod!
I want to hear the co-eds singing,
singing for me...
II: DESPERATION
In the rooms the critics come and grump,
exfoliating Donald Trump.
Another
tea for faculty and guests.
We stare and appraise: pests!
"She placed a piece." "What's it say?"
Shrugs and grimaces,
grimaces and shrugs.
Still, we hate her. Dry wine. Dry wit.
We're so damn amused by it.
Lost at love, adrift at
tea.
Preeminently, me.
Nod and murmur, murmur and nod....
I fully intended to be a god
or at least a gorilla.
Odd, I do not detect one scintilla
of the respect due a gorilla,
never mind a god.
Can they actually see,
dialectically speaking,
the antithesis side of me?
Greet and smile, smile and greet,
tasting the taste of
my defeat. Oh!
If only! From teeny, tiny sophistries,
I could grow gigantic mysteries...
If I could prove that
out is in
and thick is thin, that the hip bone
connects to the lip bone...
I can not, I can not,
I am academic
snot....
Let me go then,
before despair overflows
into sneering bon mots,
let me go somewhere
and think,
I mean drink.
CHORUS
If Frankenstein hopes to stalk the academic walk,
first he has
to talk the monster talk.
Grammatology meets eschatology--
publish or perish, mystify or die.
Next night as I ponder weak and tearful,
more and more and more hic beerful,
I
feel the fact of my vanishing act,
and fall sobbing at my Mac:
"Oh, pretty please, poststructuralist Muse--
extract
your dues!
I'll trade my soul like Faust and gang
if I could master Theory's slang
and kick my colleagues screaming
down the slope
and then be crowned King of Trope."
Suddenly
around me
cheerleaders pangendered but ballsy
strut the postmodernist palsy:
"WITH PIPE AND TWEED AND TENURED GLEE
RIDICULE THE BOURGEOISIE!!
TERM
THEM MOOT! TERM THEM BRUTE!
APPROPRIATE ALL THEIR LOOT!
YOU'RE SO, SO, SO, SO MUCH SMARTER....
HEY! CALL YOURSELF
A GOD...LIKE YOU OUGHTA!"
I won't forget their festive, cackling shrieks
as they swirl closer to undrape
me,
this gaggle of geeks, and rape me.
When I commence to squeal,
they snap: "A deal's a deal!"
The room
explodes in the sensuous blurs
of ponzi schemes and nonsequiturs.
I seem to ascend the Power of Babel,
everyone
else is merest rabble,
I'm aloof, above all human needs...
Theory Rules the lower breeds.
I know at last my
life's mission,
dialectical fission:
bomb people with what is not,
explode the life they think they've got.
I
know too I have the knack.
Memo to colleagues: I'M BACK.
III: VICTORY
Yet another tea; the topic,
of course, is me.
Faculty
flutters 'round,
fearful of my frown. The Dean, all astutter,
wants to chat. I can stand a minute of that.
Meet and
sigh, sigh and meet,
tasting the taste of their defeat.
It's true, my articles stun and depress the best--
did I
not prove East is West?
All wonder buzzily what might come next,
what daring new dance upon the text?
I have rolled
the campus
into a ball. I rise above them all,
logically foxy,
a very paragon of paradoxy.
Students drop their
frisbee to stare at me;
a co-ed teasingly squirms, wishing
intimacy with my terms.
And as I promenade
about the
quad,
I detect the thought
behind the facade:
they think I am a god!
Now I hear the co-eds singing--
for me,
of course.
CHORUS
Dante descends to a lower
rung
and finds the critics there all well hung,
beating their breasts as they do time:
"Brother, can you paradigm?"
Ah, the joy of rearranging this world,
present and past,
so the first shall be last,
and the
boy shall be girl,
of showing that everyone's
bonafide realities
are only signifieds
for disease.
In
my students' eager eyes
I see their happy surprise
at my gifts
for detonating seismic semantic shifts.
Presto,
I devise the incisions
to revise the revisions
and reconstruct the deconstructed.
"Don't you know," I ask,
"that
is our task!"
They marvel to see
I am free epistemologically.
That's the meaning
of indeterminacy.
No
proposition is so bizarre
I cannot turn it into law.
Everything's false! And anything's true!
Nothing means nothing
till
I define the terms for you.
What glory to be free and on top!
So let's stop
this malarkey
against hierarchy.
CHORUS
The most strange of bodily fluids
intoxicate our new druids.
Through
ruined classics they cavort,
and murder to dissect for sport.
So much brave new work to do--
turning old literary nags to glue!
Humanistic twiddle, historicist
piddle...
Enough! I'll terminate this stuff.
The nerve of poets dreaming large,
thinking they should be in charge!
Here's
a modest proposal
for their disposal:
stand Poetry before a theoretical ditch
and expropriate the bitch.
In
the rooms the critics stand and stew.
Screw them--I am on a roll!
Stroll and nod, nod and stroll.
My career's hot
like
the dry wind
that parades the quad
as I prominently promenade,
a very god.
IV: CRACK-UP
In my dreams I see their youthful eyes,
their guilty surprise....
"But what," one asks, "are lies?"
A loss of sense? A sense of loss?
Never mind! I am the boss.
Stroll and nod, nod and stroll,
look at me, I'm on a roll.
This career is hot,
like the dry wind....
as I promenade....
a very god.
CHORUS
In the modern geist,
Theory is prosthetic device;
The amputeed are all agreed,
more Theory is all we need.
The wind so dry,
the air so empty.....
something ominous and slack...
perhaps a lack....
Were I not a diety
I might yield
to silly bourgeois sentimentality
and feel,
or even cry.
No, this is fun, so much fun!
And the work is just begun.
Now that I control the hegemonic,
I swear life's more sweet than gin and tonic.
Why then do I drink so much,
why do I feel so out of touch?
Nonsense! I'm post-logocentric man!
Don't try--even I can't understand.
Imagine wearing Hitler's hat,
dictating what's what
and that's that.
Nothing is privileged
but my last diktat...
In dreams I see their swimming eyes...
their why's, their sad surprise....Oh!
A world with no facts at all,
why does it feel so small?
On feelings an interdiction!
I make notes toward a supreme fiction...
Oh, there is no water but only rock,
schlock and no order and the randy toad,
me, for whom the co-eds sing...
Wait, don't forget one thing--I am a god!
I can show the circle is square,
decisively disprove the presence of air,
instantly create an ism, concoct
a second coming of dense grammatical jism...
Things sprawl apart. The center cannot hold.
Mere Theory is loosed upon the world.
In the pogocentric university,
we have met the ennui,
and us "R" it...oh shit...
A loss of sense? And too a sense of loss...
CHORUS
Berkeley, Harvard, Yale and Duke
make a nifty cultural nuke,
opening cans of tenuous terms,
endowing Chairs of Coifs and Perms.
Next night as I ponder pale and confused,
less and less and less amused,
I fear the fact of my vanishing act
and reel shouting at my Mac:
"I want out, the deal undone!
I want to feel like everyone
else." Cheerleaders pangendered but ballsy
smack me about until I have a palsy.
"No," I scream, "you are just a dream--
sophistical shanties on vacant premises
and empty plots, transparent
Camelots. Not real in any degree.
You are Theory!"
Now they shrink back and sputter.
I lift the Mac, throw it from the window
to the gutter. The night burns
with the ashen colors
of well-smashed Grecian urns.
My heart, once interpretative ice,
becomes a puddle.... My head
softens with sickening hums
to a muddle.....And I am mended
By medics wreathed in pills red and brown
Till human voices shake me, and I drown.
V: DIRT
Another tea, and I see the pity
for me. The Dean stares into space,
anywhere but at my face.
Some try to be polite and formal
but all can tell I'm merely normal,
not a god, not a gorilla,
in Theory's rainbow, barely vanilla.
I can no longer prove two equals one.
No, not a god at all and, God knows, no fun.
Glance and stammer, stammer and glance,
I apologize in advance
that I have traveled to Theory's dark heart
and come back a defective part.
Well, now that it's done
I dimly recall it was lots of fun,
kicking colleagues down the slopes,
making the best look like dopes....
And being this new kind of necrophiliac,
roughly laying books on their back.
And taking sense behind the fence
to play Doctor...
Ah, there's rumor I was the best.
Prove East is West?
I can't even prove I'm not a pest.
I think l am.
Now I want to feel only dirt,
ordinary human hurt,
not Humanity's Hurt, which is easy,
but another human's hurt,
which always shakes me
helpless and queasy.
CHORUS
At Theory's ground zero,
where no birds chirp,
they eliminate the hero
and solemnize the burp.
But what was it all about, how did we begin?
Was this what we meant, what we hoped to intend?
Once we said, read the works and dearly love them,
now we say, shove them,
and read instead our boring Crit,
and read instead our boring Crit.
Once I too could sing
0000 that critical rag
that drapes everything in drag
so all's anomaly and confusion
and only one thing's real: illusion.
What's real now is that no co-eds sing,
certainly they do not sing for me.
I grow old. I'm a scold.
I have traveled into Theory's dark heart
and come back a defective part
or was one from the start.
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